.Tuesday, July 27, 2010 ' 11:05 AM Y
Hi My Lovely Blog,
Right now, i am so bored. And i just wanna write something about my feelings for these few days.
Erm...how do I start?
Firstly...i wanna say Sorry to Tuck Seng. Sorry that i hurt u. I dun wish to hurt anyone!!! Haiz...It is so hard to break the truth to u...and I can only write here. I am very sorry. I noe no matter wat i said now...u still feel hurt. But i just wanna tell u that actually u r a great guy. I noe u care for me. But then i just can't accept u.
Though ppl might think that we seems to be together becos of the photos that we took together and judging from the number of outings we go out together but yet we r not. I hope u understand that erm. 如果要爱一个人， 最重要的是感觉， 喜欢，还有一点仰慕。。。才会慢慢。。。慢慢地产生的！ 虽然我承认，我还没忘记他。。。但其实问题并不仅仅出现在这件事上。。。Anyway i just hoped that u will be happy again.
Though this week i am actually quite packed but i still accompany u. Becos I noe that u r very moody. I dun mind pei u...just hope that u won't misunderstand my intention. I dun wish to give u anymore false hope cos i scared to hurt u again.
Actually U r very observant...U discover wat is my strength. However...u r not the type of guy I am looking for so...I hoped that we can be friends...but now i am just 走一天是一天。。。顺其自然。。。PLEASE DUN FORCE ME TO MAKE A DECISION. I just wanna live peacefully. Let nature take its own course.
Today get back ELDC grades - "B"
Though it is not very good...But i actually satisfied with it...cos i think i really dun deserve an "A"
Cos i was really very quiet in the group.
I also dun understand y from last time back to year 1 till now i am year 3...whenever discussing project...I will keep quiet...I cannot contribute any ideas...cos my mind was a total blank. I felt myself so useless sometimes. HAIZ. I really wanna contribute smth to the grp but my mind just follow my heart...my mouth just stamber down there...without saying words. I HATE MYSELF!
I can be very blur at times, lack of planning and quiet. WHY AM I LIKE THIS? In additionally, My codings are not strong at all! Which leads to I am not a sale oriented person or a technical person. I fail in both options. HAIZ. I wonder if next time i come outside to work. I will faced alot of problems. My boss, my colleagues will demand alot from me if i didn't met their expectation. They can be very harsh and direct to u...By saying that i think u r not suitable for this job. HAIZ. Dun wish to c this happening... And i hope for a change in me. I shd try to think when ppl was saying smth. Even it was wrong...i shd just tried. Just like last time what Sok Sok was always trying to tell me. They meant me well ... Of Cos.
I dunno y some people said that I choose ppl to be my friends. It is not so. My character is if i met someone who i feel comfortable to tok with...who have the same topic to talk with me....who is easygoing...I will be close to him/her. Whereas if someone who i think that we dun have any common topics to tok abt...I will just be normal friends with her.
IS THIS CALLED CHOOSING PPL? I feel so sad and hurt. But anyway...i noe y they say these...cos they dunno me too well yet...so they make this kind of prejudice.
Today went to watch The Sorcerer's Apprentice...It was a very nice show.
Will rate 5/5