~LingAlways!~ ((=

2011-01-13T23:41:00.014+08:00

Ok today shall blog about my feelings today.

Just got back my gsc test paper, I feel so sad and disappointed...i already know that i will fail!:( HAIZ! I just dun understand y everything i worked so hard but then in the end this is the result i get! It is EVERYTIME!

Sometimes I just feel so useless even do a simple ppt...i also take a very long time to do and never do a good job too!:( I pulled down the grades of the whole group during Entrepreneurship ICA2a.

Sometimes when i really wanna find a person to tok with but then i just cannot find a person. Maybe i must understand that She is really tired so she prefer me to sms her instead but then i dun like to sms. Maybe everytime i will just think of myself first before her. Sometimes i am very thankful to her becos she will always show her concern to me in fb, always post on my wall, comment on my status and she will always like my photos. She is my no. 1 fans.

I am a not socialable person. I am quite petty with money. Sometimes i think issit my fault? Am i really choose those that i want to make friends with?

Then nowadays, i dun have the drive to do anything...no mood to do projects, sch work or even Pastamania. My cashiering is also very slow. Everytime i felt so bad leaving Esther alone at the cashier. Becos i am so slow with the microwaving of baked items, I did not help her do any support. I want to say sorry to her. She always helped me alot during closing time and also school work. Everytime when i think of her, I will just call or sms her to ask abt schwork! Very grateful to her for helping me these 3 years!

I really dunno what is my path after poly. And i dun wan to repeat any modules! I am very scared! Very worried for Java and every other modules! I hoped that i can graduate from poly with my fellow classmates!

Sometimes, even ur own family also dun understand u. Sometimes they just dun appreciate u. Sometimes i dunno y my relationship with my family is so strained. Me and My 2nd Sister are forever not in good terms. I really very envy Cynthia and her sister. They can be so close. They can just have a heart to heart talk together. This is wat will never happened to me and my sister! I also not in good terms with my grandfather, grandmother, relatives, cousins no matter is father side or mother side. I am not anticipating this year's chinese new year! I dun want to visit anyone. I just wanna stay at home though i might not have any ang pao. But it is okay!

Sometimes, I just need a shoulder to lean on, I just need someone to tok to when i am sad and just need someone to dote on me! But then there isn't any! I felt that i have few friends. Maybe becos i am not a socialised person! I am quite quiet sometimes during group discussion. From the beginning when Sok Lei and Mr Woon tell me, i already know that is my biggest weakness and also lack of planning. I wished that one day i can improve on all my bad points. I just hoped that one day i can have more confidence in myself and i have totally changed from the past LOO XUE LING that everyone knew in 2011!

I noe that nobody will bother to read my blog. But then i just wanna to write to let myself see and have a memory of what has happened to me in the past.

2010-09-23T20:02:00.004+08:00

Haha...Long time never blog already. This blog have opened to public for about 1 year.
Recently happened alot alot of things
Which made me cherish my life, my family and my friends...
Yst was Mid Autumn Festival.
The moon was round and bright.
Hope everyone have a wonderful 中秋节
家好月圆。。。人月两团圆！
Erm...dunno wat to say already. So bored and no mood to write anything.
Cya soon. Nitez!
Loves: Ling

2010-08-12T23:31:00.003+08:00

It has been a long long long time since I blogged!

Sorry! I was pretty lazy and busy!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! These few days I was bloody unlucky! :(

I GUESS MY LADY LUCK DOES NOT BLESS ME! :'((((((((((((

Sunday - Break Cheese Bottles
Monday - Stomach Ache
Wed - Phone Spoilt

I SUPPOSED BAD LUCK HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING ME! :( HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZ...

Alright, approximately 7 more days to HOLIDAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!
Long Awaited Holidays!
Have been waiting for it since 5mths ++ ago!!! IT IS LIKE "FINALLY!"

Counting down => 20 AUGUST

JIAYOU FOR REPORTS AND SHOP AND SAVE!

Tml is Yan Ping, Cassandra, Kaira, Chester, Agatha and Agacia's last day in BSC!!! How fast can it be?? Their 9 weeks and our 6 weeks together with them!

Will miss them alot! The fun, laughter and memories we shared together!!!!!!!!! All the best to all of them for their next stopover! KEEP IN CONTACT, TAKE CARE! :)

Will write till here, Nites Everyone! :)

2010-07-27T11:05:00.011+08:00

Hi My Lovely Blog,

Right now, i am so bored. And i just wanna write something about my feelings for these few days.

Erm...how do I start?

Firstly...i wanna say Sorry to Tuck Seng. Sorry that i hurt u. I dun wish to hurt anyone!!! Haiz...It is so hard to break the truth to u...and I can only write here. I am very sorry. I noe no matter wat i said now...u still feel hurt. But i just wanna tell u that actually u r a great guy. I noe u care for me. But then i just can't accept u.

Though ppl might think that we seems to be together becos of the photos that we took together and judging from the number of outings we go out together but yet we r not. I hope u understand that erm. 如果要爱一个人，最重要的是感觉，喜欢，还有一点仰慕。。。才会慢慢。。。慢慢地产生的！虽然我承认，我还没忘记他。。。但其实问题并不仅仅出现在这件事上。。。Anyway i just hoped that u will be happy again.

Though this week i am actually quite packed but i still accompany u. Becos I noe that u r very moody. I dun mind pei u...just hope that u won't misunderstand my intention. I dun wish to give u anymore false hope cos i scared to hurt u again.

Actually U r very observant...U discover wat is my strength. However...u r not the type of guy I am looking for so...I hoped that we can be friends...but now i am just 走一天是一天。。。顺其自然。。。PLEASE DUN FORCE ME TO MAKE A DECISION. I just wanna live peacefully. Let nature take its own course.

Today get back ELDC grades - "B"

Though it is not very good...But i actually satisfied with it...cos i think i really dun deserve an "A"

Cos i was really very quiet in the group.

I also dun understand y from last time back to year 1 till now i am year 3...whenever discussing project...I will keep quiet...I cannot contribute any ideas...cos my mind was a total blank. I felt myself so useless sometimes. HAIZ. I really wanna contribute smth to the grp but my mind just follow my heart...my mouth just stamber down there...without saying words. I HATE MYSELF!

I can be very blur at times, lack of planning and quiet. WHY AM I LIKE THIS? In additionally, My codings are not strong at all! Which leads to I am not a sale oriented person or a technical person. I fail in both options. HAIZ. I wonder if next time i come outside to work. I will faced alot of problems. My boss, my colleagues will demand alot from me if i didn't met their expectation. They can be very harsh and direct to u...By saying that i think u r not suitable for this job. HAIZ. Dun wish to c this happening... And i hope for a change in me. I shd try to think when ppl was saying smth. Even it was wrong...i shd just tried. Just like last time what Sok Sok was always trying to tell me. They meant me well ... Of Cos.

I dunno y some people said that I choose ppl to be my friends. It is not so. My character is if i met someone who i feel comfortable to tok with...who have the same topic to talk with me....who is easygoing...I will be close to him/her. Whereas if someone who i think that we dun have any common topics to tok abt...I will just be normal friends with her.

IS THIS CALLED CHOOSING PPL? I feel so sad and hurt. But anyway...i noe y they say these...cos they dunno me too well yet...so they make this kind of prejudice.

Today went to watch The Sorcerer's Apprentice...It was a very nice show.

Will rate 5/5

2010-07-22T01:44:00.003+08:00

Your Life Path Number is: 7

The Thinker
The number seven is associated with knowledge and imagination. You are a logical person. You are likely to be very knowledgeable about the world around you. You love questioning about things you don't understand. You have a few but close friends. You are considered to be an intellectual person. You prefer peace and quiet in your surroundings.

Your Destiny Number is: 8
The number eight is associated with success and wealth. You are goal oriented and strive to go ahead in life. You prefer to be your own boss and do not like working under others. You follow your own judgement and rules. You want to be recognized because of your success and prosperity. You are most likely to succeed in business.

Your Soul Number is: 2
The number two is associated with peace and harmony. You are tactful in your dealings with people. People turn to you when there is a need to restore peace and order. You maintain balance in your thoughts and actions. You maintain very good relations with your family, friends, relatives and work colleagues. You are a large-hearted person.

Your Birthday Number is: 2

2010-07-22T00:18:00.002+08:00

Today was a very screwed up day in my life! I HAVE NEVER FELT SO SCREWED UP TODAY!
Actually i think i am as fragile as a glass. Maybe like wat Rong Rong say...I am like a paper.

AM I WRONG TO SAY THAT WE SHOULD GIVE EACH OTHER SOME TIME TO COOL DOWN? COS I THINK WE HAVE SERIOUS PROBLEM. I AM ALSO HURT WHEN I SAY THESE TO U. I AM SORRY.

Tuck Seng....Can u pls dun act as if u noe me very well. SORRY...I noe u want to help me and Rong Rong. But i think i need to cool down and she also need. Though this is not the best way cos this is like running from the reality. But just a simple cool down perhaps when we think through everything...WE CAN FIND A WAY TO SOLVE THIS PROBLEM.

RONG RONG, i am very sorry...I REALLY DUN MEAN TO HURT UR FEELING. I am also very sad when I message u. TRUE FRIENDSHIP CAN OVERCOME OBSTACLE! Maybe after this incident, our friendship will become more stronger. Give me some time and give urself some time.

I dunno wat to say already. I hope u understand wat am i thinking. Hope u can feel that SERIOUSLY, I DUN WISH TO LOSE U AS A FRIEND! IT IS A VERY EXPENSIVE PRICE TO PAY.

ALRIGHT, FOR NOW, I WILL WRITE TILL HERE.

2010-07-14T00:07:00.006+08:00

HI BLOG, WE MEET AGAIN TODAY!!!

Today i feel much better as compared to yesterday. I would like to thanks MISS ONG RONG RONG for encouraging me and enlightening me!=) She is always there when I am down. I never realised that she becomes so strong after breaking up with SOFIAN. As compared to her, I felt myself so useless and inferior. I still living in the past. Like what she say, I should move on with my life. When I was sad, where is he? He is happily at another place. Why should i ever cry for him? But my memories is still making fun of me sometimes. Like today I went to the same sitting place at Hougang Macdonald. Suddenly, the memories flash through my mind and tears flowing down uncontrollably. I dunno y i will behave like this. I wanna to make myself more miserable by listening to emo songs and thinking abt the past. This will make me feel more terrible. Maybe i really 犯贱。。。NO MATTER WAT, THE PAIN IS STILL THERE, IN MY HEART FOREVER MAYBE TILL I FIND A NEW LOVE TO REPLACE THE SADNESS AND PAIN I HAVE HAD EXPERIENCED. But watever it takes, I need to have the determination to move on and stop all my emotional feelings. AS THEY SAY TIME WILL HEAL ALL WOUNDS. If there is a rewind button in my life, I rather join nanyang polytechnic chinese orchestra, perhaps i have not much time to work. And i won't be so close to ONG RONG RONG, DERRICK HO AND WONG XUE YUN. But up till now, I have not regretted joining pastamania and knowing them. They are my pillar of support! I noe they will always be there for me when i need them!

I just wanna say thank you to those who care and concern abt me. Xue Ling is grateful to all of u. THANK FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME NO MATTER WAT HAPPENS! I wish that if one day i am of any help for all of u, all of u can approach me and i will try to help!=) I will give all my available time to all of u.

2010-07-12T23:46:00.010+08:00

I thought that I have put down but actually I am deceiving myself. Why am I so unlucky? Why must I go hougang mall? OMGGGGG! If fate really making fun of me, I will see that person tml.

I always thought that I have put down everything since the day we ended. But it does not seems to be so. Everyday every night, I will still try to recall about the past, how did we meet? How did we start? Where did we go? Where and when we ended? How much I suffer? All these are pressing me.

Last Saturday, while i was waiting for the train, I suddenly dun remember how he look like. I was listening to 叶子 by 阿桑. It was a very sad song. I refer to my handphone and see the last 2 pictures in my phone that we took.

叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀

翅膀是落在天上的叶子

天堂原来应该不是妄想

只是我早已经遗忘

当初怎么开始飞翔

孤单是一个人的狂欢

狂欢是一群人的孤单

爱情原来的开始是陪伴

但我也渐渐地遗忘

当时是怎样有人陪伴

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停

也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心

只是心又飘到了哪里

就连自己看也看不清

我想我不仅仅是失去你

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停

也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心

只是心又飘到了哪里

就连自己看也看不清

我想我不仅仅是失去你

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里
就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子

I dunno y today while looking at his email again, my tears begin to drop. He really wrote till very touching and it touches my heart deeply. Actually I am a simple person, I dun nid ur sweet talks, I just want you use your sincerity to treat me like how i treat you. But it is so difficult for him which won't be able to come true.

2010-07-10T04:27:00.006+08:00

Hello Blog,

Today is considered my first formal experience of going clubbing. I bet I will not go clubbing frequently in the near future. I will only go there if there is any special ocassion or just once in a while. This is not because I did not enjoy today clubbing session. I did enjoyed today clubbing session. All of my ELDC friends are very protective of me. They are worried that I cannot take care of myself.

Tonight is my first experience of drinking beer I think and dancing in a club. Seriously, I cannot tahan wearing high-heels and dance for hours in the club. It was so crowded and sometimes ppl will accidentally step onto ur feet like wat i experienced today. Currently, my feet was pain and abit swollen after clubbing...this is the side effect after clubbing.

Sometimes, I dun understand y ppl like to use beer to drunk themselves. After a break-up, they will always go clubbing, drink alot and dance to forget all their unhappiness. I think this way is the most stupid way, it does not help in anything. It is only making u feel more worst. Though, u are able to sleep well for one night, no more sleepless night, but u will feel terrible when u drink too much and when u vomit. Even the next day when u are awake, u will still have mild headache.

Inside the club, I saw one couple who was kissing each other and dancing. This reminds me of my past. That girl is like totally smitten by the guy. She cannot restrict herself after one kiss. This is like so unglam in the public I dun understand y most of the girls will react like this? HAIZ!=.= Beside that couple, I also saw some ppl being thrown out because they are too drunk and some bunch of friends bring one drunk girl out. The girl was too seriously drunk. She cannot even sit properly as she will always fidget everywhere. Even if her friend give her cigrette to smoke, she also cannot regain her sober state.

Yesterday marks the end of our 6 weeks in ELDC, we have submitted our report. Next week, we are going to report to BSC. So I guess this is a new start for us, MYSTERY SHOPPER!~ New start! Good Luck for us, ppl at EMRS and ppl at ELDC for next coming 6 weeks!=)) JIAYOU WOR!!!

And i get to know a bunch of great friends at ELDC. I admired the character of Tammy the most. Because she is a girl who is very true to herself and friends. She is matured, have goals in life and noe what she wants, what she likes and wat she dislikes and this is totally different from LOO XUE LING. Besides that, she is smart and capable too. But one thing bad abt her is "SHE SMOKE." What a pity right! But she seldom smoke...the time she smoke is when she wanna make herself more energy to do work bah. I really admired her character alot. Maybe perhaps she is older than me bah...so she experienced more things le bah. How i wish i have half of the character as her. I wish to learn from her.

I really dunno y I do not have any goals up to now. I still dunno wat am i going to work as when I graduate. My future is like a big question mark!!!!!!!! HOW?!!!!!!!!!!!!!Haiz!:(

Ok lah, Goodnight for now, I am going to sleep!=) SWEET DREAMS!<3

2010-06-30T10:10:00.023+08:00

Hello blog, I feel like changing my blogskin. Cos quite sianz with the old blogskin!
OMG...I am super super lazy now...everyday come sch...watch drama and print screen the avatar only. Left one more week to the end of ELDC!!! Need to write the report! Really dunno wat to write. I think i only learn how to design shoes and bags for the avatar and print screen the avatar. Never really touched on the codings! I think I am getting lazier and lazier as each day passed.

And most importantly...I am getting fat!!! People who never see me for months saying that I am fat! OMGGGGGGGGG....I really have to slim down!!! I think it is all becos of PASTAMANIA!!!

Ever since I am working at Pastamania for 2years++, everyday it is just pasta and pizza! Temptation of the food!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I have to stop all these! I should do simple exercise everyday! But everytime I am just too LAZY!!!!!!! Cannot stand myself sometimes either!!!!>,<

And I just watched Toy Story 3...It was nice show!=) I will rate 4/5!=)

Thinking where shd we go tonight!~~~
3 person dating...
Shd we go Marina Barrage, East Coast Park or ??
Sick and tired of going the same place everytime...especially City Hall Area! :S
I am a person who is easily bored. HAHAHAHAHA!:D I also dunno why.

Quote of the day: Bored!! Bored!! Bored!! If you are reading this then you must be bored too!!

2010-06-26T03:42:00.008+08:00

WATCH THIS PPL OUT THERE!!!=))

PICTURES

2010-06-22T01:02:00.005+08:00

2010-06-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

丁噹-我愛他MV

丁噹即將在月底推出新專輯「夜貓」，首波主打依舊是她拿手的抒情曲風「我愛他」，MV也特地找來修杰楷擔任男主角。原來丁噹是「痞子英雄」戲迷，她獨愛修杰楷「神秘、憂鬱」的感覺，促成唱片公司邀他擔任MV男主角，圓了丁噹「近水樓台先得月」的心願。按劇情，丁噹和修杰楷是一對戀人，甜蜜時，兩人在浪漫的薰衣草花海中奔跑，雖然畫面唯美，實際拍攝時卻吃足苦頭，除了烈日曬得兩人頭昏眼花外，一開始丁噹還穿著高跟鞋踩在花田的泥濘中，最後索性都脫光鞋子直接踩在泥土裡。而MV戀情不甜蜜的部分，就是修杰楷是個花心大草包，不停劈腿，還帶女生回家上床，被躲在衣櫥要給他慶生驚喜的丁噹當場抓包。拍著拍著，只見躲在衣櫃裡的丁噹突然痛哭，原來她憶及自己的初戀也是劈腿收場，還花了兩年才慢慢走出情傷，沒想到MV劇情直擊舊傷口，讓她失控崩潰。丁噹「夜貓」專輯2009/09/29

2010-06-09T13:07:00.009+08:00

Hello Blog...

It has been a long time since i blogged last time.

So how is my life recently?

Sch have started for me...have gone thru 2 weeks of ELDC...First we did self introduction!! Finally completed!! Now we started on our real projects!!! It is E-Learning Stuffs.

We use visual studio and flash to do mix and match for the male and female avatar!!=)) Seems fun!! Haha!! Feel like i am learning design somehow!! Haha!:D My course is good cos i get to learn alot of new things! Last time abit regret to choose this course... but now i am still ok!! Except for codings wise!

Erm...recently me and Rong just took photoshoot!! It is damn expensive!! Haha!:D Pictures will be uploaded later!=))

We have to REN till mid August...OUR LONG AWAITED HOLIDAY!!!! Hope time can fast forward very fast!! But also GOOD LUCK for our TEP Projects...2 stopovers...ELDC and BSC!!!!!=)) Good Luck for the projects we r currently doing!!!=))

Anyway, Rachel has flew to Beijing last mon!!! I am going to miss her!!!!!!!!!! AWWWWWWW!! Rachel, U BETTER TAKE GOOD CARE OF URSELF!!! And hope u can cope with ur studies over there!!! Waiting for u to be back!!!! TAKE CARE!<3

In additionally, i wanna say sorry to someone! Maybe sometimes i hurt ur feelings...but i dun mean it!! Sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can only say sorry to u!!! Hope u will be fine soon!=)) I hope u can be happy!

And Derrick say that i always liked to tok to myself!! So sad!! Like that say me!:(( Cos just now toking to Esther...then Esther like not listening to me...so he thought i toking to myself only!:@

LOL!! But i agree sometimes i will tok to myself becos it has become my habit!! But this is not insane or psycho ok!!! I am perfectly normal!!! LOL!!!

Anyway...I will stop here!! Stay tune ppl!

2010-05-23T11:21:00.003+08:00

Hello Blog, 我们又见面了！

昨天，看命中注定我爱你，看到早上六点半才睡。

我真的很羡慕电视剧里的女主角们，故事中，女主角都找到自己的白马王子。像童话故事一样，过着幸福美满的日子。现实生活才不可能会有像王子那么体贴，那么浪漫的人会出现！
我为女主角们感到感动，因为她们终于找到自己的幸福！

一个平凡，傻气，不过心地善良的女孩。虽然她们是傻气，不过，她们不会处心积虑去陷害别人。她们的心是天真，善良。男女主角们也是经过不少风风雨雨才可以在一起！

不过戏始终是戏，梦也始终是梦，都不是真的！戏是跟着剧本走，把戏里的角色改编的很完美，观众才会去看！

人还是脚踏实地的好！无论你是否能找到你命中注定在一起的那个人，你都不可以活在幻想中！

有些人可能觉得我很天真。我是很天真，我终抱着一个信念，世上一定会有真爱，只是我们的真爱还没出现！随缘吧！我觉得是你的就是你的，不是你的，你在怎么强求，也不是你的！不要的东西，你还要吗？有些事情，错了，就无法再还原！

命中注定，可能我要遇到这个遭遇，我和他只是一对有缘无分的两个人！

就写到这里，下次见！

2010-05-21T16:10:00.004+08:00

Hello my blog, we meet again!

Today is friday, 05/21/2010 4:13pm.

Today i feel so enlighten. I feel very lucky to have such a nice OIC by my side. She has really identified wat is my strength and wat is my weakness. She is like my mentor, she give me advices. She wants me to improve. I am really very grateful to her.

Quote from my report:

I would like to express the deepest appreciation to:

Ms Stacey Wong, for her valuable guidance and advice throughout my whole attachment period. She has taught me alot of valuable things that cannot be learnt in school. She teaches me how to be more confident in myself and wants me to talk loudly and be more confident when communicating with people. In additionally, she also teaches me how to be cautious in the work I do, always double check and saved a backup copy after I finished my work. Having a backup copy is important as it is an assurance. If one thing goes wrong, at least, you would have a backup copy to recover.

She has given me opportunities to get engage and participate in events and learn about the knowledge of running a marketing campaign.

She has always been very patience in answering my questions and explains to me when i encounter any problems at work. Nevertheless, she inspired me greatly to not only work hard but work smart. She teaches me how to plan my work before I start doing something. She wants me to learn the importance of planning. Occasionally. I always need to redo my work because I did not save my work after I have completed some of them. The reason is because I always liked to save all my work after i finished everything but due to some problem, i always need to redo some of them. Hence, my OIC always tell me that i am lack of planning. Now, i know the importance of planning, therefore in the future, if there are any projects or assignments, I will always think through and worked out a plan before i start to do my work.

Sometimes, I can be very stubborn. I remembered there was one time, when I worked till very late, Stacey persuade me to go home first, tomorrow then continue, but I did not listen to her. In the end, I stayed until 8pm, and Stacey has to use her OIC position to ask me go back home.

Stacey has taught me to be humble at all times no matter in school, working life or society. She wants me to present myself professionally during work. As I am projecting an image of myself, my school as well as my office in charge. She always liked to spend some time to talk to me, teach me when I go wrong.

I am glad to have such a good advisor with me for the past 12 weeks. She motivated me not only to work hard but worked smart. My weakest point is planning. Without planning, execution will fails. She can be strict when it comes to work, but overall, she is a caring boss to me. She inspires me to learn, always possess a learning attitude. I hoped that I can absorb what she has taught me and apply to my studies or work in the near future. She has been a great advisor and a great teacher. Thank You Stacey for always being there to guide me along. I will always remember your advice and I hoped that I will not disappoint you in the future.

Yesterday I went to watch Shrek with Tuck Seng. This movie is hilarous and loving movie. I will give 4 stars. Tuck Seng yst brought up one question: "Do i still have any feelings for Jameson?" My answer was like I dun hate him, I can't even rmb the things we do together in the past, I am not sad anymore. Even sometimes when i tried to recall the past, but i only can remember bits by bits. Memories of Us seems to be fading away slowly.

Sometimes, i will be thinking that if that day Jameson really leave his girlfriend, wat will happen? I think that i am really naive to believe that he will really leave his girlfriend. I am a third party all along. They are together for 5 years. Do you think it is possible for them to break? Unless he really loves me alot till he can become a sinner for his whole life.

I blame myself for being indecisive. Actually Stacey can see through my personal character easily. I hoped i can improved. I really want to improved and dun wish to disappoint her and most importantly myself!!

In this attachment, i have gain alot of working and life experience from Stacey. I promised to possess a learning attitude everyday. To learn new things is beneficial to myself not for others. To be humble infront of everyone. I will try to learn new things if Amanda wants to teach me abt delivery stuffs in pastamania.

I also dunno y i get so emo sometimes. I wanna to be hurt. I wanna to think of the bad past we have. I wanna cry out loudly. I noe that it is not worth it. I think i haven completely put down my feelings and not my relationship for him.

My relationship with him has ended long time ago since the third day of new year.

I also dunno what i exactly wants now!!! I shd be decisive and noe wat is my goal!! Till now, I still dunno wat is my aim in life. Wat I want to become when i have graduate. I hope I can go university. If not, I will need to look for a job. I shd start to have planning for my life now! I shd start to plan for my future career now!!=))

Watever it is, I would like to thanks Stacey for the past 12 weeks of guidance u have gave me!! Thanks alot. U will always be remembered! Wish you all the best in ur career as well as dun be so workaholic. Spent some valuable time with ur children!=)) May ur children can grow up happily under u and ur husband's guidance!=)) Loves U!<3

2010-05-05T00:22:00.008+08:00

LIFE IS SHORT, CHERISH BEFORE U REGRET!!!

请珍惜眼前人

每一天都应该过得开开心心

不要有任何遗憾

人生是短暂的

岁月不留人

你预测不到明天到底会发生什么事

所以请珍惜你活着的每一天

让身边的人快乐

也是一种幸福

别人快乐

自己也会快乐

生命可以是脆弱，也可以变得很坚强

让自己决定自己的命运

开开心心的过每一天吧

让每一天都过得灿烂

伤心只是暂时的

不要伤心

要坚强

要勇敢

加油!!

2010-04-30T23:43:00.002+08:00

我今天也不知道怎么了！！为什么会生气？？为什么？？我觉得我被冷落！！或许是我太小气吧！！希望他真的能帮助蓉蓉！！=)) 我真的很不喜欢被忽略的感觉！！对不起，我可能让你们看到我不好的一面！！明天就要出国了！！出国玩两天也好，散散心！！明天也是那个人女朋友的生日！！希望他们明天玩得开心点！！如果巧的话，可能我们会碰上！！不过是不可能的啦！！哈哈！！=)) 谢谢德成替我画的米奇老鼠！看得出花了很多心思和时间!! 今天蓉蓉说德成没有自信心，其实是对的！！人应该有自信心。。不要自卑！！每个人都有自己的优点！！为表只是一个躯壳，当你老了，你的样貌已经没有那么重要了！！最重要的是你的内涵！！有自信，别人看你，对待你的眼光也不同了！！其实我也要学会做什么事都要有信心！！不要对自己做的事没信心！！好吧，当我回来在见吧！=))

2010-04-26T23:31:00.004+08:00

Hi there!! A short post! Sorry for not blogging for so long!! Have been working and working non-stop!! Haha!! Attachment left one more month to finish!! Can't imagine how fast time flies!! ONE MORE MONTH AND WE WILL BE BACK SCHOOL!:( SIANZ!! Actually, i am quite lucky enough to meet a good OIC, who is willing to teach me, to groom me to a completely diff person. To discover my flaws and try to help me improve!!=)) And most coincidently, i was also lucky being posted to IBM same as Rui Ting and Huan!=)) Attachment is fine!!=)) One more month to GO!!

This coming sat and sun, i am going either KL or Batam! Finally can relax, after such a long time!!=] Because straight after our exams, we do not have any holidays, we straight away went for out IPP Program!:( So it is good to leave singapore for a short period of time!!=]

Ok, for now, i will write till here. Write more when i visit this blog again! Bye Earth!=))

2010-03-06T13:39:00.004+08:00

(No Subject)‏
From: Jameson Wong (jamesonwong8@hotmail.com)
Sent: 21 December 2009 00: 15AM
To: Xue Ling Loo (xsnowbellx@hotmail.com)

My loving dear,

I think this time is the last time Jwcs call Lxl DEAR.. Actually i really don't know what happen to you.. Not really understand what the reason make you make decision like this.. But i respect you what you had make.. How much i say also cant change the reality.. Today my phone are not singing to me anymore.. Just like i cant reply your much sms anymore.. Something wrong with the speaker lol.. I wondering how tomorrow i wake up and go to work lol!! Will buy a cheap alarm clock tomorrow if can find.. if not die.. haha..

My dear, I really don't wish that you are so cruel to me, are there something happen??? sent so many sms to you and not get any reply.. You know how i feel now?? You will never know the feeling i have now.. Can we back just like before? Happy happy go thru everyday? movie walk and shop? I really enjoying staying with you.. You are the only girl that i wish to having a new life at other country.. Forgot everything leave and having a new life.. But this are not going to happen to me.. I am so sad now!!! haih... But what can i do to change it since u got so strong feeling to end up this relationship with me..

I wish to serious talk with you.. Can you meet me at wednesday? Our last date, after that then i wont bother you and will disappear from your life.. No more 24/7 and just will be a hi bye friend 点头之交only just like what you said just now.. Can you meet me? I hope you make it just for our last meet and our happy ending!!! I hope to get your reply soon.. But i am scare i am not getting a reply from you anymore.. I really scare.. I dont know what to do now.. I am lost! Are you still there for me my dear? Do you still remember all the good times we have?

Jwcs!

The Original wrote by Me
(No Subject)‏
From: Xue Ling Loo (xsnowbellx@hotmail.com)
Sent: 21 December 2009 02: 07AM
To: Xue Yun Wong (enigmatic_wxy@hotmail.com)

To: Jameson Wong
After reading ur e-mail, i am really touched, tears flowing down my cheeks. But, however, i have already make up my decision. No matter wat u said, i won't change my decision. There is sometimes, i really wanted to believe u, i already given u alot of chances and i noe that u need alot of time. But seriously, from my bottom of heart, i really want u to go back to ur girlfriend, be loyal to her, i dun wish to be a third party. U always tell me that it is feel that build a relationship, it is not time that build a relationship. However, i think that feel and time is important, since u all have been together for 5years, both of you have know each other well, for example, personal character, families, likes and dislikes. Maybe when a couple get longer or when they are in two different places, their relationship will be strained, will be driften apart, however, a strong relationship shd able to overcome all obstacles. Be faithful to her, u shd cherish her, shd show some trust in her, if u dun trust her and she dun trust u, how are both of u going to last?? As i said before, u shd have a heart to heart talk with her. Trust and commitment is very important in a relationship.

We still can be friends, if u are bored, u still can sms me, but we are just friends, we won't get to meet each other. Just purely friends. U shd buy a alarm clock as soon as possible or change a new phone. Get back to ur life, be happy, time will be ur best medicine. If u really lonely, u shd communicate with ur girlfriend or ur other friend. They will always be there for u! Dun be sad, life has to move on... Cheer up! U have alot of lame jokes, do something that can make u happy ok!!

I won't meet u on wednesday, dun nid wait for me. Move on with ur life...go out with ur friends to countdown for Christmas! I wish Merry Christmas in advance, hope u will be able to find ur happiness soon, it is with u now, but it is up to u to decide, to think carefully whether r u going to cherish it! Be happy ok!! U shd forget me. I am just a passer-by in ur life. Just a very ordinary girl who wants a simple life. I really cannot be together with u anymore, cos if i am with u, i really lost myself, i dunno who am i, i dunno what am i doing. I think in a relationship, u shd noe what are u doing and u shdn't lost urself. U didn't give me a sense of security and responsibility when i out with u. I dun feel secure at all! Sorry to say that! I wish u all the best! Thank you for being my 24/7 for this 1 month. Ur sms bill totalled up alot...haha!:D We can still be friends. But as i say, just friends, if u bored, u still can sms me. But we r just friends...dun think too much....GET BACK TO UR LIFE OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best Regards
Xue Ling

Editted By Xue Yun...haha!:D
(No Subject)‏
From: Xue Ling Loo (xsnowbellx@hotmail.com)
Sent: 21 December 2009 02: 27AM
To: jamesonwong8@hotmail.com

To: Jameson Wong
After reading ur e-mail, i am really touched. I have already make up my decision. i won't change my decision. i already given u alot of chances and i noe that u need alot of time. But seriously, from my bottom of heart, i really want u to go back to ur girlfriend, be loyal to her, i dun wish to be a third party. U always tell me that it is feel that build a relationship, it is not time that build a relationship. However, i think that feel and time is important, since u all have been together for 5years, both of you have know each other well, Maybe when a couple get longer or when they are in two different places, their relationship will be strained, will be driften apart, Be faithful to her, u shd cherish her, As i said before, u shd have a heart to heart talk with her. Trust and commitment is very important in a relationship.

We still can be friends,u still can sms me, but we are just friends, we won't get to meet each other. Just purely friends. U shd change to a new phone. If u really lonely, u shd communicate with ur girlfriend or ur other friend. Dun be sad, life has to move on... Cheer up!

I won't meet u on wednesday, dun nid wait for me. Move on with ur life...go out with ur friends to countdown for Christmas!U shd forget me. I am just a passer-by in ur life. I really cannot be together with u anymore, U didn't give me a sense of security and responsibility when i out with u. I dun feel secure at all! Sorry to say that! Thank you for being my 24/7 for this 1 month. But as i say, just friends, GET BACK TO UR LIFE OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best Regards
Xue Ling

RE: ‏
From: Jameson Wong (jamesonwong8@hotmail.com)
Sent: 21 December 2009 19: 06PM
To: Xue Ling Loo (xsnowbellx@hotmail.com)

Xue Ling,

This 2 days i feel so down, i have totally lost my direction and don't know what am i doing now!!! The thing i wish now is hold your hand tight and don't let u go from me but i know that i cant never ever meet you again :( I don't know whether u ever truthly fall in love me or not!! But i am still in love with you.. Why u can be so cruel to me if u love me?? Maybe from the beginning til now i never in your heart yet.. and your heart still got your derrick lol.. Cold blooded PIG.. Why u always ask me back to my girlfriend? U never think be with me ma? I am feel with you now!!! Feel to decide a relationship.. A relationship without feel its wasting each other time!! I don't want regret when i am old.. I don't want you be passer-by in my life.. i want you stay in my life.. So good if i don't have girlfriend then never meet you before then i won't be so 可怜now!! haha.. I understand the meaning of 一个巴掌拍不响！！

Just now bought a alarm clock lor.. So funny lol... U know ma when u make this decision to me.. I really wish to leave sg asap alone go other country explore my new life experince!! I am still young i still want to learn more to gain my life experince or maybe i am bored and lonely here!! but now i still cant afford yet and my family also not allow me to do that.. they will miss me much especially my mom lol.. beside that i also 不舍的my hgm gang.. But i know 1 day we all will transfer to other outlet.. so i will cherish the time working with those POK KAI lor..

Wednesday i off, but i don't know where to go and what to do because u not gonna to meet me.. So sianxxxx... I think i will alone go watch movie lor.. hahaha.. Christmas eve more SIANXX again.. all my friend all want go to chiong but i don't want.. very hot and waste money lor.. haha.. 1 person need $100 buttsss.. haha.. wasted.. still think can happy happy together count down christmas with you.. but now everything change.. sien lor.. haih.. what am i doing, what am i going to do.. siennnnnnnnnnn.. hope to get your reply soon..

JWCS

Loo Xue Ling‏
From: Xue Ling Loo (xsnowbellx@hotmail.com)
Sent: 24 December 2009 00: 22AM
To: jamesonwong8@hotmail.com

Jameson
Thanks alot for wat u have done for me these one month, the clip that u made and everything that u have done for me! Sorry actually, i did promise you to wait for u till Feb 8, count down christmas and new year with u! But i break my promise. SORRY! I think watever things i said now won't help, cos ur heart still pain and bleeds! But i really hope that u can get back ur life soon! Any unhappiness u can tell me. I hope to be ur listening ears. But pls do not have any thots that we still can be together! I just want to be friend with u! We can be close friends, brother and sis but we just cannot be together anymore! I hope u understand!

Actually i did truly love u, really honestly! I had given u chances, i think u also noe! It is not that u r the one who hurt the most in this relationship, i also dun feel good, i am also badly hurt. At least u got experience before, u got break-up with ur previous past girlfriends! I dun have! This relationship is the first relationship i have! Since young till now, it is always i have a crush on ppl, i treat the ppl i like well! Never did i noe that, there is someone who cared and concern for me. But i dunno r u honest, r u true to me? Maybe i dun believe u at all...u can say that! But i really tried to believe u! When u say that u wanna go overseas with me, study together, living together, i really very touched. But watever i say now, it is all the past love that we have, all over! Dun think too much le ok! Jameson! I dun wish to c u in this 崩溃 state! Be brave ok, u r a man! Move on with ur life!

I hope u will be ok soon! I wished u and ur girlfriend will be 冰释前嫌 and go back to normal! May both of u will be 幸福快乐, 永远开开心心! (:

Best Regards
Xue Ling

Xue Ling‏
From: Xue Ling Loo (xsnowbellx@hotmail.com)
Sent: 22 January 2010 09: 26AM
To: Jameson Wong (jamesonwong8@hotmail.com)

你到底明不明白我要的是什么？？其实每当我一个人冷静的坐下来想我们的事，我都会觉得很痛苦！！！我和你在一起的时候，我是会有点开心，可是我们每一次出去玩的时候，我们都没有什么话题聊。你会说为什么我不和你说话，我是觉得我不知道要和你说什么，仿佛我觉得我没有话题和你聊，你也没有！我很想知道你家里的事情，你的朋友，你所有的一切，不过，你很像不想对我说！你昨天还对我说你已经告诉我你所有的一切了！你知道吗当我和你出去的时候，我有时候会觉得很闷，你知不知道双鱼座的女生很容易闷，她们喜欢浪漫，希望自己的情人是不会让她们觉得自己很寂寞，很闷。我以前真的很讨厌别人在街上亲热，不过我不知道从什么时候，我也和他们一样！其实我很爱你，我很想用多一点的时间陪你，所以我每一次才不想那么早回家。自从和你交往，我觉得我自己经常晚回家，常常欺骗我的父母，我觉得很慚愧。我不是在胡思乱想，我真的很痛苦！我的要求应该不过份吧，希望不会带给你压力！！对不起，我经常和你发脾气，经常很小气！！我也不知道我自己为什么会变成这样！你真的当你回家，你会和你女朋友讲清楚吗？？我不希望破坏你们的感情，你自己在想清楚你自己到底希望和谁在一起吧！！！

2010-03-06T02:12:00.017+08:00

Know each other during October 2009 at Hougang Pastamania

Started on 25 November 2009

Ended on 18 February 2010

4 months together marks the end of

Loo Xue Ling and Jameson Wong Chan Seng

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Yo Blog!! I am back to post!! So Monday is my first day of Work at IBM!! Hope it is a good start!!(: Working as Business Admin at IBM!! Haha!:D Actually quite lucky...cos only very little programming work to do!! HEHE!!:P And who is working with me...none other than...HAHA! RUI TING AND HUAN!! HEHE!:P But we r in different department! CAN GO LUNCH AND DINNER WITH THEM!!=P Haha!! At least got accompany!

So sad...have to separate from Rachel, Cynthia and alot of ppl for 3 mths!:( I also wanna wish Sok Lei and Joan all the best! Take Care there in ur new classes next semester!! JIAYOU!!

The thing that i worried most is Miss Ong Rong Rong...she is sick!!:( Haiz...Monday is her final year exam...then she will be graduating! She can't afford to let anything to affect her performance!! Miss Ong Rong Rong...PLZ TAKE CARE OF URSELF!!! U CAN DE!! DUN GIVE UP!! Preserve all the way to 9th March OK!! I have absolute confidence in U!! JiAyOU!!!

And these few days i am playing with photo funia!! I am going to post some pics of my past love!! HAHA!:D 4mths of r/s...with lots of tears, some happiness and a promise to be my 24/7, be my guardian angel, want to study overseas with me after i graduate and wait me 15mths! How good if these things happen to be true?? But it will never turn up to be true!! Whenever think of all these things...my heart hurts...Haha!! But now i am getting better and better!!(: Alrite...GoodNight...I will write till here...will write again soon!

2010-02-26T01:22:00.006+08:00

This is Me!!! A girl who just broke up!

Wai Yik!

Thanks 4 always accompanying me these few days!!

2010-02-25T16:25:00.004+08:00

2010-02-25T09:36:00.003+08:00

为什么我的生命要有你的出现！！为什么你可以这样轻而易举的一脚踩两船。。。你不会感到不安，对不起，惭愧吗？？为什么你已经有女朋友了，还要来找我？？我更本从头开始都不想介入你们的感情！！为什么你要让我变成第三者，让我慢慢爱上你，让我对你的感情深了，你才说原来你始终爱的还是你女朋友？？我很好耍是吗？？为什么你要让我等你几个月。。。你让女人等你。。。应该是男人等女人而不是换过来要女人等你，这是什么道理？？我不明白！！为什么你连一点点伤心都没有？？为什么还可以照常过你的日子！！

你到底把我们的感情当成什么？？我所有的眼泪真的一点价值都没有是吗？？为这段感情付出的感情都付出流水。。。我真希望我能忘记所有的一切。。。从新开始我的新生活！！我好想飞，飞到一个远远的地方！！我知道你不值得让我为你伤心，可是我的心终是那么酸，心里终是有很多很多的为什么？？

短短四个月就可以在我的生命里留下那么难忘的记号。。。这种回忆我不要也罢！！可是说的简单，做的难！！我有那么容易放下就好了！！嗨。。。别想这么多了好吗？？去读书好吗？？礼拜一还有考试。。。让这种男人影响你的学业，值得吗？？别再蠢下去了。。。日子还是得过下去！！告诉你自己你一定可以找到更好的！！或是一个人的生活也不错！！无忧无虑。。。学 DERRICK HO 咯。。。哈哈！！就写到这里吧！！希望明天会更好。。。

2010-02-23T11:26:00.003+08:00

你说过的话都不算话。。。你对我的承诺都成了废话。。。可能我在你眼里，一点价值都没有！你对我的欺骗是会永远留在我心里。。。大骗子！！我想你真的没有真心喜欢过我吧！！一直以来是我自己蠢。。。是我自己笨。。。给你一次又一次的机会！！你根本都不去珍惜我给你的机会。。。我还傻得再原谅你！！我的愚蠢害了我。。。变得不理智。。。不懂我到底在做些什么？？虽然现在我终于清醒了。。。可是我的心仍还痛着。。。这件事使我看清楚男人的心。。。虽然不是所有男人都是像他一样，可是男人的共同点就是贪心，和喜新厌旧，贪新鲜，花心，见一个，爱一个！我要学会让自己比以前更坚强！！:D

2010-02-20T02:33:00.006+08:00

歌手: 张惠妹

原来你什么都不想要

我知道这样不好

也知道你的爱只能那么少

我只有不停地要

要到你想逃

累湿的的枕头晒干就好

眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹

以为在你身后

是我我一辈子的骄傲

原来你什么都不想要

我不要你的呵护你的玫瑰

只要你好好久久爱我一遍

就算虚荣也好贪心也好

哪个女人对爱不自私不奢望

我不要你的承诺不要你的永远

只要你真真切切爱我一遍

就算虚荣也好贪心也好

最怕你把沉默当作对我的回答

我知道这样不好

也知道你的爱只能那么少

我只有不停地要

要到你想逃

泪湿的枕头晒干就好

眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹

以为在你身后

是我我一辈子的骄傲

原来你什么都不想要

我不要你的呵护你的玫瑰

只要你好好久久爱我一遍

就算虚荣也好贪心也好

哪个女人对爱不自私不奢望

我不要你的承诺不要你的永远

只要你真真切切爱我一遍

就算虚荣也好贪心也好

最怕你把沉默当做对我的回答

我不要你的承诺不要你的永远

只要你真真切切爱我一遍

就算虚荣也好贪心也好

最怕你把沉默当做对我的回答

原来你什么都不想要

Chinese New Year Eve

2010-02-13T19:28:00.007+08:00

Hi Everyone!

Happy Chinese New Year Eve!!! HOHOHOHO!!! Tml is tiger year! 我祝大家虎年行大运，做生意的人，虎年发大财！读书的朋友们，学业进步，年长的爷爷奶奶们，身体健康，岁岁平安！新的一年，新的气息，新的希望，新年每个人都应该开开心心！明天也是情人节，　我祝所有有情人终成眷属。　永结同心，　永裕爱河！我祝我亲爱的Auntie身体健康，我会永远想念你，你在我心目中就像我奶奶一样，虽然我们才认识两年罢了，不过你把我当成自己的孙女一样看待!! Auntie 你要保重，要好好照顾自己，有空就打给我，找我聊天吧！！！:)

Hereby, I want to wish everyone a very very proseperous new year!!!! Hope the year of tiger is a good year for everyone!

2010-01-22T18:18:00.015+08:00

你真的是太不了解我了，我要的不是你的甜言密语，我只是想你对我是真心的，为什么我感受不到你的真心，我也很想相信你，可是我相信你一次又一次，最后我还是一次又一次的失望！！我真的有点后悔了，为什么我又陷下去，我明明已经上岸了，为什么我又掉到陷阱里面！！我好想找回以前的我，以前清清白白，单单纯纯的雪玲，她不会撒谎骗父母，不会不听朋友的劝，不会让爱她的人失望，不会说过的话，都出尔反尔！现在的雪玲到底在做什么！每当她自己冷静下来的时候，她才清醒，后悔为什么自己做过的事，问自己自己到底在做什么，自己到底知不知道自己在做什么！！

可能当我长大了，在看我这本日记，我才知道原来自己以前那么傻！但我要感谢他给了我一段我很难忘的恋情，那么刻苦铭心！我的初恋，初吻，所有的一切都会将在今天结束！我不会在心软了，我希望我不会在出尔反尔，令爱我的人失望！我相信他是爱我的，可是我们真的不适合，再勉强下去，对大家也不好！放弃吧！时间是我最好的良药！

写今天这篇日记可能会让很多人看，但我鼓起勇气，要时时刻刻提醒自己不能再犯同样的错！其实恋爱一点都不好，以前的我很渴望谈恋爱，不过现在我不想，我不想在受伤害！我已经为这段感情哭了很多次了，我累了！别人谈恋爱都可以得到朋友和家人的认同，赞成！我谈恋爱得不到别人的祝福！我很痛苦！我不想失去他，也不想失去爱我的人。。。我的好友，家人, 爱我的姐姐和哥哥们！我该怎么办？？

痛苦！再加上我已经有很多的projects,特别是ITIPJ!!!!!! 我不想我的GPA掉，我还有很多的测验，考试！！真的很烦！！！烦上加烦！！为什么？？？他一点都不了解我到底要的是什么？？ HAIZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!:(

2010-01-11T10:15:00.004+08:00

Yo! My blog, i am back to post! Now i am in sch now! People are discussing projects but i am using the com to blog...HAHA!:D Haven have breakfast yet!

Yesterday was Mei Yun's Brother Qihui and Wei Yee's Wedding! Being invited to their wedding at pan pacific hotel, the food was quite delicious, enjoyed the dinner very much! HAHA!:D I went swimming last sat, my body still so pain and red till now and even my face was so red. Actually today i am living a new life, a new start of my sch life and everything! Nothing matters now! I will stop dependent on anyone! I think i shd learn to be independent! STOP RELYING ON PPL XUE LING!!! 15months to graduate from poly...I really hope to complete ITIPJ as soon as possible and graduate from POLYTECHNIC! Hate to study now...Perhaps i am getting lazier and dun feel to do anything!

Sometimes i really doubt myself, i dunno wat kind of person am I? Y am i so fickle minded, so stupid and so useless! I felt so imperior, my low self esteem!:( No matter wat, my life will still move on! I still got a long way to go! Cannot so easy give up! But action will speak louder than word! I hope i can do it and not always say but never do it! It is the time to put everything down and concentrate on studies! Dun disappoint ppl who loves u and cares for u! And dun disappoint ur parents who raise u up! They have pinned alot of hope on you, wished that you will become a useful person in the future.

Ok, i will write till now! Will write again soon!

Messgae of the day: To have and to hold from this day forward, for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish to death do us part.

2009-12-30T17:20:00.006+08:00

Have not been blogging for such a long time...alot of things has happened!!! LOL!!!~~~~~~~~~~

TML will be counting down to 2 0 1 0!!!!! Wohooo!!!!!! Time really fliessssss!!! And tml is Miss Ong Rong Rong Bday LOL!! HOPE SHE WILL HAVE A WONDERFUL 19TH BDAY TMR!!!!!!!! LOVE YA FOREVER!

Hope a Brand New Year ahead will be a good year for everyone of us!!! Hope to complete ITIPJ as soon as possible, scored good grades and my GPA won't be affected!!!!!!!!! EVERYONE JIAYOU BAH!!!(: I really hope that i can faster graduate from POLY cos i hate this kind of lifestyle now...WITH LOADS OF PROJECT!!!! But...we shdn't give up becos of small obstacle...i still have a very long way to go...SO JIAYOU BAH!! DUN GIVE UP SO EASILY!!(:

Picture of the Day:

Message of the Day: A brand new year, A brand new start

当一个人的时候!~~~

2009-11-15T01:11:00.004+08:00

My new facebook nick... 当一个人的时候!~~~ LOL...
此刻的心情...不知道是什么...一点点的寂寞
一点点的忧郁...
只想...
静静的思想...

After tml presentation will be free!(:

2009-11-12T22:07:00.003+08:00

Hi Blog...Sorry for not updating my blog! This week is super stress and tiring for me! Assignment deadline, ICAs and Presentations...SIANX! After tml presentation...everything will be over!(:
I really very tired...wanna sleep...wanna lie on my bed and not doing anything! HAHA!:D May i?? HAHA!

Yesterday went out after IB Lecture with Cynthia, Joan and Rui Ting!(: We went Yishun Eighteen Chef to have our lunch! Cheesy Spicy Chicken Pasta, with one drink and one desserts for just $6++. It is quite worth the money!(: Then after that we went to pet shop...those puppies are so adorable...some are just like teddie bears....haha!:D One memorable sentence is Please don't abandon me because i only have u!<3 Something like that bah! When we wanna buy a pet, we should take care of them, feed them and show them our care and concern...we shouldn't abandon them because we do not have time to look after them or we have get sick of them already!:( They are so pitiful if we abandoned them...they will have to send to SPCA. SPCA will "ren dao hui mian" them...so dear pet owner please take good care of ur pet...pls dun abandon them! Their life is at ur risk! " DONG WU YE SHI YI GE BAO GUI DE SHEN MING, TA MEN YE SHI XU YAO REN LAI TENG XI, LAI BAO HU DE!"

Ok, shd get ready for tml ITIPJ de presentation! JIAYOU!(:

Wat a worst day that i have today!

2009-11-07T00:15:00.002+08:00

Today was the celebration for Kingsley Bday! It supposed to be a very fun and happy day. But unexpectedly something cropped up, which breaks my friendship with Kay Kingsley. Whenever i tok to him to msn, he will ask me to fuck off, go away. Actually, from monday onwards, i already gave up on this person totally. The incident happened on monday, when I asked him whether he is free on friday? He asked me to go away. I really damn angry with him, actually i wanna sever all the ties with him. I decided to call off the birthday celebration for him and regard that i have never known this stupid person before. Until yesterday because business track have 4hrs break so we went amk to have our movie. The title of the movie was My girlfriend is an agent! HAHA...this movie took 2 hrs....it was such a hilarious movie...some parts are really lame...but all of us enjoyed this movie! HAHA!:D After our movie, because Joan received a sms, minitoons informing her that they are having storewide 30 discout for all customer + members 35% discount. So we went in to look around. I saw one pirate monkey which suite Kay Kingsley. Therefore i call Ong Rong Rong, ask her whether shd i buy a birthday present for him. Then this Miss Rong Rong say buy him something lol, never buy, like very bad. So i bought this pirate monkey as his birthday gift!

Then today straight away after sch, i went to hougang mall to visit ppl. I managed to complete the bad news before my laptop batt was flat. I was already very tired, but i still have to meet them at bugis. In the end, i am the first to reached, i stand aside at the corner to wait for them. Dunno i waited for how long, Kingsley came followed by Esther. Rong Rong was the very latecomer. NVM...So actually we intend to eat at food junction, but when Rong Rong come, she say lets go and eat somewhere else. We walked around level 2, and can't decide which restaurant to settle in. I kept showing them one name card of the cafe, but they dun want to eat there. My initial plan is actually everyone was on budget so we dun necessary need to eat until so expensive. So the cafe there perhaps also got sell cake, so we can have a mini celebration for King there. So we went to Sakae Sushi to have our dinner. I ate one curry katsu don for like 10.55 only. Some ate udon, some ate don. They ordered sushi to eat too. But i never ordered anything. My friend keep hinting are we on dutch or sharing together. But nobody bother abt her. Haha...then the bill came, becos it is not enough. So i pay the rest for them. Then i calculated the price that they need to pay me. The kingsley say i calculative actually is not i calculative, is becos i really on budget. I have spend alot already, phone bills i pay, laptop i pay, i going broke. Though i working, but i need to work how hard and long to get my pay. Cos the 50bucks is my dad gave me to buy my concession de, i really dun wanna use it. In the end, i tell Kingsley nvm lah, i pay for the remainders that u short, u dun nid to pay me back le. I passed a letter that i wrote to Kingsley, he read till halfway and dun wanna read it, he even crush the paper, i was so disappointed and angry, i walked away to cool down myself , then i came back to find them Then Kingsley and Esther keep wanting to go back home and Rong Rong want to buy a cake to celebrate for him. So we went to the basement to buy a cake. As they all dun have any money left, so i treat them eat the cake. We cannot even find a proper place to cut the down. In the end, we settle outside the sakae sushi waiting seat to celebrate. There might be some ppl seating down. Perhaps is Kingsley's pride, he might be feeling embarassed. We helped him light up the candle, he dun even want to come and make a wish, blow the candles properly, While we are preparing to light up the candle and while we are singingthe birthday song to him till half way, he blow off the candle two times. I was damn disappointed and angry. I dun feel like eating the cake anymore. Haizzzzzz...Today was the worst day ever! I will sever all ties with Mr Kay Kingsley. I might treat that i never known this person before! Haiz!:(

Message of the day: Friendship are as fragile as a glass. I am truly disappointed and i got nth to say.

MY LOVE QUOTES FROM FACEBOOK

2009-11-03T11:58:00.004+08:00

MY LOVE QUOTES FROM FACEBOOK!(:

"Staying with someone you really love even if you know you two can't be together for a lot of reasons is like standing under the rain... It feels good but you know it will soon make you sick."

Someone asked me, "Why do you keep loving someone who doesn't love you back? There are tons of fish in the water." I simply replied, "Just because it's also water, would you drink from the sea?"

They asked, "how does it feel to love someone who loves someone else?" After a deep breath, I answered, "It's like hugging a cactus, the tighter you embrace, the more it hurts..."

EMPTYNESS

2009-10-28T21:06:00.006+08:00

YO! BLOGGIE! HERE AM I AGAIN! Today was Wednesday, what a long day today 9-2pm without any break lol! HAIZZZZZZZZZZ!! So today after sch went to cycling with Wei Zhong, Xue Yun and Derrick!(: It is so fun!! I am the slowest lol...they ride till so fast especially Wei Zhong! HAHA...must train more liao! HAHA!:P We cycle till bedok jetty! It was such a wonderful ambience there...with peaceful environment...the sea and the cool breeze make me feel so comfortable and so free! FREEDOM!XD We chatted abt work...really miss Wei Zhong, with him around, there is so much talks and fun! HAIZZZZZZZZZ...Sorry for disappointing u! I FEEL SO BAD! SORRY...i will take care of KALLANG...i promise u...SORRY!:(

Then we cycle back to return the bicycle...then Wei Zhong left, went back home! We went to parkway hawker center and had our desserts! WOHOOO!<3 Then after that we all went back! I feel so emo and left out after Xue Yun left...Derrick stand far far away from me! HAIZ...He is like wanting to avoid me...we never talked! Then my bus came, i dun want to go back...he ask me what bus u taking...y u dun want go back? Then i say later...Then we both keep quiet...his bus came...then he boarded his bus, when he is on the bus, he dun even wanna look at me, and say bye! LOL...Then after that i went home too!

I felt so sad lah, why last time we r so close, but now, y are we in this state? Akward because he dun wanna tok to me! The ambience is so akward! HAIZ...nvm...it is all over!

LASTLY...I HOPE DAN DAN WILL GET WELL SOON! TAKE CARE OF URSELF OK!

Message of the day: Why we can't go back to last time, it is such a pity that now we become like this! Perhaps, last time, i should only treat u as a colleague, then now we won't become like this!

Mickey Mouse Day!~

2009-10-27T19:57:00.005+08:00

Today was mickey mouse day! The 7 princesses wore their orange colour Mickey Mouse shirt and OMG LOL shirt! IT WAS SO FUNNY! We took pics too but all in Joan's camera so ppl just wait for the photo to be uploaded bah!

Now i am at hougang mall writing my blog. Just finished my dinner, i ate Alfredo Spaghetti in Aglio Style!! Mamamia! This is the only chance that i can eat spaghetti!! Just now have a chat with Dan Dan, Florence and Li Qiang. Pity Dan Dan sia...transfer to Hougang Mall, became thinner! Everytime sick!:( How i wish one day she and Xue Yun will return back to Kallang to work together with me!:(

Today also quite sad lah, cos haiz...maybe someone might find me very useless or stupid! Haiz...i feel sad and demoralize!:'( Anyway...i shd forget it bah! I can prove to her that i am not stupid! JIAYOU BAH XUE LING!

Yesterday was Da Jie Birthday. We went to hotel to eat! The food there damn expensive...one person for 40bucks! LOL! I bought a bracelet with her name from Precious Thots! Happy Belated Birthday Da Jie, May Hui Yuan faster grow up! All the best in watever u do! HAPPY FAMILY!

Ok, i waiting for Xue Yun to log off! Will write till here, Bye!

Message of the day: If a person think that u r stupid, prove to him/her that u r not

HAPPY MICKEY MOUSE DAY...7 PRINCESSES FOREVER!

Friday Evening Cycling

2009-10-23T23:46:00.007+08:00

YO! Everybody, today, i wake up at 7+, went to sch just for the 2hrs lesson, 9-11! When we reach sch, everybody was like sitting outside the class, waiting for the teacher. It was like 10-15mins passed already, the teacher still haven come! Lastly, someone sms us, informing us that the teacher was on mc! HAIZ, really waste our time and money for coming to sch! LO!-.- Y r they so last mins?? Hate it!

Hence, we went to bishan. We went to play arcade to waste the time! Have fun playing the spot the difference and another game which require us to look for the ingredient name. Then we went to pizza hut to have our lunch!(: We chit chat then Rachel they all come. After lunch, we went to Cotton-On! 5princesses buy the same colour, mickey mouse shirt! Except for Maisarah and Joan bought the grey OMG LOL t-shirt! We decided to wear it on tuesday! TOGETHER! Haha!:D

Then i went home to do my work! Evening, i meet Mei Yun and Esther to go for cycling! I introduce both of them to know each other! HAHA!(: I am sure they can get along well! Cos one is my best friend and one is my good friend! HAHA! Have so much fun in cycling. I never fall down...hehe! Just that sometimes, i will stop unexpectedly...haha!:D LOL! Then we went to burger king to have our dinner! We chit-chat and laugh! I really hope Mei Yun can join pastamania kallang...lol! HAHA!:P I will ask Derrick is there availability tml! Then when we go home, Mei Yun and I chat alot about our primary sch! There are some goods and some bads. Those good ones will be excursion, how we play checkers after sch, catch butterfly eccetra. Bad ones are those proud and arrogant ppl, i dun even want to mention! LOL! HAHA! So fast, i have known Mei Yun for going to 12 years le!(: LOL

OK, i shall write till here!
Message of the day: A day which friends bring joys to u!<3

It is finally going to friday!!!!!!!

2009-10-22T20:56:00.018+08:00

Hi PPL! Finally finish editing my new blogskin! Hope u guys will like it! Sch reopened a few days already, so stressed, first day of sch, teacher going thru the lesson plan, so many icas and project, deadline! Next week already have 2 assignment to hand in which have percentage! SIANX!:( But this semester, i only have 2 exam...so now we are xian ku hou tian!:P

Ok, btw, i have a new group, no more staze, although abit sad, but perhaps i can learnt how to be more independent, so jiayou bah!=) Erm, so now my new group is Dulcie, Alex and Joyce! Because we only have 4ppl, so we must work more hard! Jiayou bah! All the best to my ex teammates and DBI0805!

I am quite disappointed cos actually initially me and Xue Yun intend to go taiwan with Kallang gangs but because i might have attachment during next year march holiday, so perhaps we cannot go! Then we actually wanted to postpone to my dec-jan holiday, but Derrick, Ah Yun and Ah Kai dun have enough leave! So perhaps hopefully, i might not have attachment on march holiday, so i can go with them bah!

Message of the day: If u pinned alot of hope on one thing...the thing might not turn up as wat u want!

Welcome Back!

2009-10-18T20:38:00.021+08:00

Hi ppl...i am opening this blog again! I miss blogging...i realised that y am i so silly to close this blog just becos of one person! PPL...tml, sch will be reopening! Really dun feel like going back to sch...but wat to do?? I still have 1 year and a half before i graduate! So just bear with it bah! Jiayou! I am now in business track...really damn excited for Customer Relationship...sound interesting! But the thought of projects demoralise me! Haha! I promised i will work hard this term to pull up my gpa! I dun think i wanna work that much le! I really miss the old times...how i wish i can turn back the time to 2008!

Memories of Pastamania Kallang as a Family! But wat is passes is passed, it will never be like last time anymore! I am abit emotional today...sorry ppl! Recently was quite unlucky for me, my laptop spoilt, watch missing, one best friend, Rong Rong and another friend, Kingsley dun want to work already, so thats explain why i am sad! But i will be alright soon!=)

Message of the Day: We shd cherish those ppl who u loves and love u, dun wait till they are not around then u started regreting...life is upredictable, u will never noe wat will happen tml! So Cherish Now! Dun Regret Later!